The Process of Becoming

 

In the process of Becoming, we Shed...And in the process of Shedding, we Become.

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One does not exist without the other. .

If you are shedding toxicity it’s instantly uplifting, because when you’re at rock bottom, up is always better.

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But when you are shedding comfort and familiarity for greater things than you or your influential beings have experienced, it’s difficult. .

We have been taught to “keep your eyes on the prize”... an old adage that supports the idea that  whatever has been experienced by the collective is our limit...However, that is incorrect.

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Opening our minds to the possibility that there is more to experience than the totality of our experiences goes beyond Shedding and Becoming...

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It goes to a place beyond Faith. A place called Knowing.

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While Faith, an emotion, is a great trust or confidence in something outside yourself. Knowing is faith transformed into an undeniably unshakable logic that resides in your mind. .

Faith is trusting that someone else will catch you when you jump.

Knowing is creating your own landing; while you’re in mid air.

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How do you access this Knowing? It’s simply by understanding that you are here today. That everything you have ever been through in your life, no matter how traumatizing or scarring... you are here today. YOU made it. So KNOW that whatever happens you will land whichever way you choose. Because you are a creator. And you create your own Becoming.

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Amidst all this shedding and becoming, you will be put face to face with your own insecurities, old stories/excuses and trauma.

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Trauma forms in layers, like a rubber band ball.

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When you cut into it, it holds its shape for a moment and then begins to deform and push its insides out like a fountain; the tension shifts and the bands release themselves one by one as the kinetic energy pushes on the next.

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So in the midst of purging, don’t be alarmed of the sheer amount of trauma you uncover....Like the trauma that got you into more trauma.

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It’s like picking up dominos one by one, starting from the last one that fell.

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It’s like Inception, The Trauma within The Trauma.

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It gets quite tiresome when you keep peeling back layers expecting to see raw flesh, only to find another layer. Like the disappointment of that party game  musical present passing or whatever, where everybody sits in a circle and passes a present until the music stops and whomever has it unwraps a layer of paper. But it takes FOREVER (in child time)to get to the Centre....

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But once you do get to the center you will find that what once defined you and shaped your self worth, is actually a dollar store dinosaur that should have been banned because it has BPA in it... or some foolishness that NOW as an adult makes you want to tell your child self from the past “don’t listen to them, they’re scared and hurting and all they know is being scared and hurt and that’s what they’re going to give to you and everyone they love. Because that’s what was given to them.”

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It’s okay to let it go. It is time.

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